Imprints and Impressions

Just this day, let me wander
let me free myself of my own reins,
which choke me as I still run..
..no, I don't run with my reins, I flee-
Flee from the reins, from me.
Alas! the reins form a noose, and choke me worse.

Just this day, let me forget to put the reins on me,
let me be just like another - free to laugh, free to cry,
free to love and free to hurt.

Just this day, let me drown in memories, don't rescue me!
Let my tears freely flow, my heart freely ache...
I long to catch up with my mind,
so set me free, lest I lose my mind.

Just this day, let me hear me sigh, and be guilt-free at that.
Let me stop guarding my being, minding my words..
Let me forget 'me', and be my 'self'
Let me fear in peace, and find peace in that.

My wounds are still sore, my pain still fresh,
my longings passionate, and melancholy so profound...
I bear the guilt of burying these alive!
So let me fulfill their last wish, be kind and kill them all.

Just this day, let me confess -
if not to you, then at least to myself..
Let me give my every bit to you,
let me be free, let me not 'be'!